I was six weeks premature and almost died so had to be in an incubator, untouched for a month. Many prayers from my large extended Protestant Christian family kept me alive. All my life my faults have been blamed on that box that kept me alive. I was not supposed to be strong mentally or physically but my mom worked hard to develop my brain and build my physical strength.

I loved water ever since I was a little girl, I am always drawn to and surround myself with bodies of water. Nature, water and walking while being alone, since I am an introvert, is where I connect to myself.

I have a pattern of covering up my essence with other people. When I focus on other people I loose myself. I get drawn to unhealthy people and I see all the positives and overlook the red flags until everything falls apart and I feel like a victim. I repeat this pattern perpetually. When I give myself healthy breaks from people and spend time in nature, being creative and doing things that feed my soul makes me feel calm, at peace and whole.

Weaving the present moment, I observed my thoughts and directed them as I didn’t want to weave in struggle when I didn’t need to. This project makes me think of how I am weaving my present moment that creates my future and past. The biggest shift in myself is an appreciation for that box that kept me alive. Even though it caused issues, I wouldn’t be alive without that box.