Breath

I started with a rectangular loom, but was very drawn to the circle as a symbol of wholeness. There are three different sections delineated by different sized hula hoops and a bangle bracelet in the middle that I wrapped with yarn. 

The centre has gold and yellow bits as an acknowledgement that at our core we have access to spirit and glimmers of light or support during our darkest times. However, most of the interior section is consumed by black, red and greyish yarn, which is representative of the deep depression and impacts of trauma I was grappling with in my inner world.

The middle section is filled with greens and blues, representing the grounding physical world of solid earth with vegetation and flowing water. The flow of water brings to mind breath and continuous rhythms that we can return to in the present moment. 

The outer section has some yellow, which was supposed to be a more clear connection to spirit with the highs that balance out the lows being expressed in the centre. My intention had been to fill this section more completely with yellows, but it sat incomplete for many months, perhaps symbolic of this emotional state feeling quite elusive at times. 

There is something that feels very honest about this outer section being complete in its incompleteness. It makes space for the mystery and ephemeral nature of transcendent experiences and honors the faith and openness required to sit with not knowing. I’ve had times of bypassing all of the hard feelings expressed in the centre that are so important for a sense of wholeness and honouring the complexity of being a human. Ultimately, there is a sense of balance with the yellow holding or containing without pulling too much attention away from the interior spaces.